Day 5 & Day 6

Day 5 was yesday...Checked weight again...was happy to find that I m sharp 0.5 Kgs less than my weight on Day 1. Good achievement after 3 days of starvation and two treats where I could not be under any diet..
But if I look back, I had an awesome week...was too busy working for 11-12 hrs in offc everyday from 3 weeks...n surely its not going to change..But never felt that I will enjoy work this much..
Except the fact that I have to regualarise extra hours, I am enjoying the fatigue by end of day..Feels like I got something to look forward to...
Am I getting a lil crazy? or on the road to become a workaholic?? who cares na ;)

Day 6@Home
Yes... I am at home and this is where my diet plans falter a lot :(
Cannot check my weight as well nw.. :( ... Hope I will not put on a lot... I dnt want to.. I dnt want to.. :(
Will give u an update on thursay..till then ...its family time :)

day 4

cudn check my weight today :(
But I have had lots of food...its feeling guilty... :(
sad sad day...sob sob...

A song...katte nee veesharuthippol is coming to my mind...
Enjoy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8BztdmImkE

Day 3

Again checked weight...( x-0.8)+0.3 = x-0.5
I m sad coz of this...But today had our projt party n I didn get enuf time to grieve upon it..
Had fun as the anchor, got good comments too...I am so relieved too...
Had two 'near-hit-by-bus' incidents twice during my driving class...But all is well ..
Well, even tomorrow doesnt seem like a temptation anymore.. I am on the verge of a big change of personality...I am outside my shell now..Trying hard to avoid my hybernation!!

Day 2

Started as usual with my driving classes...was fun as usual...mornings r the best times of the day I guess...
Same diet as yesday..
checked for my weight ...tats a good 0.8 Kgs less...I m happy...
Then back to work,...busy busy days...It seems as if I can just completely loose myself in work..As long as I like it, I dnt think I mind if I am called a workaholic..
I wish if life also had a system which gives credits to those who work hard...I think it doesnt happen...So just left all those thoughts n back to work..
Have got an event tomorrow...m in the organizing committee...Tomorrow, I am just going to have fun...
:)
so will c u tomorrow...bbye

day 1

I checked my weight...its a whooping  kgs.. seriously embarassed to write my weight here :(
I think I have lost some things in life just coz of my weight factor and everyday realises that ur appearance matters the most, nothing else..
So here goes my attempt to be normal, to get myself included in the category of normal people..
I am going to try for sometime to reduce
Today is my first day...on fruitjuices n chappattis...
I wanna keep this page so that  I can keep track on my weight reduction
so here goes my first day...m hungry...but doesnt matter :) ... Gonna sleep with my stomach crying for food ;)
I just wish to see some change...
Coz if sacrifices can give me my life...I desperately want my life back..

Me.

As you grow old, days pass, seasons pass..u tend to look back and see what was happening all through life.
I havent grown that old to look back, but old enough to have some experiences. So what I am trying to say is that looking back at my life is not without some results. So here is a thread of my thoughts I had while coming home from office..

Somethings come back to me as dreams and some things make me smile. It feels as though things were all happening for good...from my schooling..college...friends...
one thing led to another ..n here I am today. I am actually proud.
The journey had its own ups and downs though.
Many are very close to me ..They call me up anytime. Just to say I miss you...or to tell me a good news...Or just drop a message to say Hi... They are the treasures I have gathered so far with these yrs.They are the ones who always made me believe life is good..
I was always with good people and have always felt God's hands when I was in crisis.
So far life has made me really bold that some people are in a way afraid to approach me with their old attittudes when I had thought that I will have problems in facing them :P ...Its good to know that at least some are scared of me ;).. It has made me so soft that I can see people n friends coming to me naturally...
I think somewhere I had stopped differentiating about all these..Now I just see each day, no judgements n no regrets...as simple as that..

I weigh both sides and all times happiness weighed more. My mom says I should always be thankful for  these wonderful things/people in my life and forget about the hurts/people who r not with me anymore.
I say, each day I am thankful. The happiness is so much that I am not able to keep any negative things with me. Nothing/none hurts me or leaves me hurt for long.
 I feel more like I am only responsible for my happiness or sadness. So that makes my route to happiness simpler..
A good tip to face sadness ?Nowadays everything I experience, I try to see the way I react to them after a few years..So a smile comes to me involuntarily. That instant I am away from any sadness or stress. Try tat..it works a lot :)
I am learning to live life the way I want, long after living a life struggling for perfection.
The madness in me drives me to catch all opportunities life offers me...friends, job, fun, some time with kids, some selfless work, some charity work...I am doing all...And I am just happy for each day ..there is no perfection ...no ego...no sadness clinging on to me for long..its just always a sunny day here..
I am not sure whether its the maturity or the immaturity..madness or sensibility...boldness or feminism..bad image or good image..I have stopped caring about all that now. I just know that I have so many things to do, so many things to be happy about and I am just feeling it fully...

Gnite !!

growing old..

Growing old ...
Your age is getting added up and you see yourself getting into that other side of generation gap..then you start feeling like quite out of place in the crowd..
Is this the middle age crisis? I have no idea..
After having some great times, I somehow wander back to not-so-happy thoughts. It just happens that I suddenly start feeling a void somewhere inside me. I had tried to analyse it so many times. I dont lack love, money or position. May be for the society around me, an unmarried girl who doesnt have a boy friend might be a reason.But not for me my friend, its not at all about that marriage stuff.
I was wondering whether I am getting bored of living like  veronica in Veronica decides to die.
One of my friends suggested to always keep something unfinished, so till the moment you get to complete it, you have something to look forward to. Then I tried that,,..but it seems, I can never leave something incomplete. It bores me talking over phone, but again, silence also tires me. Its not excitement or thrill. Its something else.
Loneliness? I guess even thats not an issue even when I feel more lonelier than ever before and more independent and happy at the same time.Everyone moves ahead, may be not you. You always reach a  stage where, you accept the for fact that you are alone..
Life always gives each of something to learn everyday..So I just hope that I learn the lessons and only the right one..
I am getting curious about me nowadays..